Coz nothing worth

She is searching right now for a season , that makes the life worth in her eyes . Every thing around her is black , dark , illimitable and cheap .

It's difficult to live without a goal or at least a hope . I have to be honest her view of life wasn't like this since she years ago , it's amazing how one accident can change a human precepts in a minute . Weird how can we build a city of dreams and something burn it in a seconds .

She is asking her self , "until when I will be waiting the destiny to change my view of life , reduce my anxiety or  build up my dream city again ..!!

The things are moving so slowly that no one can notices . I tolerated so long , tell the time I feel I would explode , my nerves are no longer work , my heart not beating , my eyes can not see , my ears can not hear , no sound produce form my mouth , my feelings are absence and emotions disappear …. Totally died !! .. maybe that what I am really looking for .!! "